I’m a hypocrite

killed-long-ago:

I’m a hypocrite for telling people not to harm themselves while my self destruction habbits have reached a warning point

I’m a hypocrite for encouraging people to stay alive and live for another day while I don’t know whether or not I’ll wake up tomorrow

I’m a hypocrite for telling people to keep hoping for things to change while I’ve given up and lost hope

I’m a hypocrite for pushing everyone away and isolating myself from people while I desperately crave for company

I’m a hypocrite for telling people I’m fine while I’m feeling numb and my feelings are dead

I’m a hypocrite for showing everyone that nothing bothers me or hurts me while I’m sitting and overthinking about every single little thing that made me feel like shit

I’m a hypocrite for so many reasons but thats just me