a-ladyfat:

Getting it out of my chest

I don’t want to take bad grades, but I don’t care enough about school or my future to study

I don’t want to go out, read, watch movies, listen to music, but I loved doing these stuff

I’m empty most of the time, I hardly feel sad, but I can’t feel happy as often as I used too

I don’t care about living anymore.

I want to die sometimes, but I don’t want to kill myself and hurt my mother

I can’t believe people actually like me, not even if they tell me, it always feels like they will leave

I don’t feel like someone with depression, maybe I’m just tired

Maybe I should lose more weight

Maybe I don’t even care about all of those things

Maybe I don’t know anymore…