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Fun ED things that no one talks about

• Keeping your fingernails short so they don’t scratch the back of your throat
• Breakdowns in the shower
• Panicking at the thought of homemade meals
• Bad breath
• Dry mouth
• Brittle and discolored nails
• Hair loss
• Hair growth
• Nothing tastes good the second time
• Passing out
• Blurry vision
• Lightheadedness
• Weakness
• No energy
• Irritability
• As soon as you get done eating with friends/family, you plan on how to get rid of it
• Isolation
• Always being cold
• When it comes out your nose
• Planning ahead of time when you’re going to take laxatives
• Laxative addiction
• The bathroom is basically your second bedroom
• Food is just numbers
• Muscle aches from exercising too much
• Bingeing on everything in sight
• Binge/starve cycle
• Plateaus
• Crying after stepping on the scale
• Avoiding mirrors
• Hating shopping for clothes
• Cringing when people mention eating disorders
• “An apple? Too many calories. Let’s eat this entire pint of ice cream instead”
• When “just one” becomes too many
• Avoiding going to the doctor so they don’t mention your weight loss
• “You look great! How did you do it?” “Oh you know, just diet and exercise…”
• Scratchy throat
• Either no exercise or too much exercise
• Unrealistic body expectations
• Constantly feeling your bones, wishing they were visible
• Self esteem? Never heard of her

Feel free to add on~

• Wanting to sleep all day so you’re not tempted to eat
• Destroying relationships with so much deceit and lying
• Losing the trust of everyone, making you even more alone
• Trying to order at a drive thru/icecream shop/resturaunt with friends and having this giant pause while the waiter stares at you because you want to say “no thanks”
• Trying to seem normal but then punishing yourself for trying to eat like that
• Wanting to cut your curves off
• Checking every single window for a reflection because you’ve forgotten how you really look to others
• Being so consumed, you don’t hear anyone actually talking to you.
• Pretending to be normal while you multitask and count calories in your head
• Counting those calories over and over to make sure you didn’t forget anything/underestimate
• Burning hot showers for 30 minutes because you want to feel warm for once
• Dry skin, peels off no matter how much lotion
• Blurry vision, eyes can’t focus on anything anymore
• Going to the bathroom just to check your body
• Sitting with your feet slightly off the ground to make sure your thighs don’t squish
• Cringing during a hug/cuddling
• Wanting to be seen as bones but not wanting to be stopped for being too boney, but not knowing the line because you can’t see yourself/what’s actually healthy
• Forgetting any other reason to live/get up
• Begging to catch a stomach bug or flu
• Leg cramps at night
• Losing words for things while trying to write like you used to
• Being constantly angry at others for eating or even thinking of eating
• Feeling guilty for sitting instead of moving
• Would rather die than gain weight
• “i wonder if i get a big haircut i’ll lose weight?”
• How much of my weight is actually just poo?
• Needing advil but knowing it’ll destroy your empty stomach
• Not taking medication for other mental illness because weight gain is possible

• Stop taking your birth control because you know it makes you gain weight
• Spending hours in the supermarket pouring over every calorie in food only to leave with nothing
• Being relieved when your period stops because you don’t have to watch the scales go up when you get it
• Dark circles under your eyes all the time
• Sensitive teeth from starving/purging
• Hating your naturally skinny friends for being able to eat
• Obsessively examining any ounce of fat on your body
• Avoiding spending time with loved ones because you know there will be food there

• skipping parties caus you know there will be food

• avoiding beaches or pools all summer

• Stressing when restaurants show calories for foods

• Stressing when restaurants don’t show calories for food

• “your not gonna eat?”

• concerned looks from people you care about and feeling like shit

• planning out when to exercise a week in advance