inspired-by-bones:

¿New around here?

Seems like you are new to this community, and you are looking for weight loss, didn’t you?

Well. First of all, let me explain you how it works:

• You are anxious because of the calories in all the foods.
• You count calories while chewing 100000 times the food.
• You always think about how to get rid of the calories you consumed, even if you sticked to your calorie limit. This step incluides overexercising, purging, starving for entire days or abusing of laxants and diuretics.
• You cry because of food. You cry thinking about what you ate or thinking about what you want to eat. You cry seeing the plate in front of you or seeing how everyone eat happily except you.
• You punish yourself every time you eat, or even if you didn’t eat but you want, because you think you are a pig. This can be in many forms. I just insult myself and search/write meanspo (that’s why my meanspo posts)
• You ALWAYS see yourself as fat. Even if you are already thin. You have an obsetion with the rolls and just bones, so your brain fucks up your view of yourself.
• Are you ready to say ‘no’ at every plan with friends or family just to avoid eating?
• You won’t want to think in anything except food. I was diying without studying or doing my homeworks because my mind had space just for weight and food.

Oh, you don’t want these things, don’t you? Ah, wait, so you say you did all these things easily and you don’t care about it and actually motivates you! So bad, so bad. Let me tell you:

• You will never reach a UGW. That’s because you always make it smaller, and you don’t stop because it’s never enough for you.
• You will never be “thin enough” because of your body dysmorphia.
• Even if you are thin, you won’t eat normal anymore because you are so scared and you can’t handle the fear of a yo-yo effect or gain a single pound.
• You won’t be happy

Aaaaand remember that:

• Your hair will fall out and be broken easily. It will look horrible
• Your nails will lose colour and will look weird
• You will have black circles under your eyes and will look exhausted all the time (and you will be)
• Aaaaaaall of your body will be full of little hair because you are always cold. You will feel like a polar bear
• Your skin is drive and gets yellow. It would look super shitty

Yes, I didn’t talk you about the health problems it will cost to you, but you obviously heard about all of them and I know nobody cares about diying because of this, sadly.

I don’t want ANYONE to be damaged because of my blog and my posts, neither this fucking illness.

So please, TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF. YOU DESERVE IT.

• You deserve to eat
• You deserve a rest time
• You deserve a healthy life
• You deserve to be proud of your progress
• You deserve to love yourself because you are really, really strong, I know it.

And I don’t care if you are overweight, if you are at normal weight, if you are obese or if you are underweight. Neither your gender or anything else. You deserve all what I said anyways.

You can’t live wanting to starve yourself or overthinking about all what you ate like you will gain eating an apple, inclusive a slice of cake. No. You are ill, you deserve medical atention, trust me.

I always write to myself. This time, I want to tell to the ‘newbies’ that living this way is a hell.

And just today I realised that I can’t even eat an apple with half a kiwi without struggle with those 100 calories for breakfast. Shit.