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reblog if you:

– flinch away when someone touches you.

– panic when you accidentally break an object.

– get scared when someone walks behind you.

– feel your heart rate increase at every sudden noise.

– are easily panicked by slightly-louder-than-normal sounds.

– stare apprehensively at your bedroom doorway for hours at night.

– have trouble making eye contact with people.

– always feel either too mature or too immature for your age.

– simultaneously crave and be terrified of physical contact.

because i do all of these

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*nervous laughter *

… *awkward laugh*

Okay so i wasn’t physically abused, but i was emotionally abused and always feared that i would be physically and so i do most-if not all of these things.

I worked last month and it was in an environment full of men (we we’re like 3 women and I was the youngest) and they all were taller than me and there was this one in particular that was the tallest and he had a deep deep voice. Anyway. They were all screaming for nothing (they communicated that way I assume) which made me jump a lot because loud noises scare me. And one day the taller screamed just in front of me to talk to a colleague at the other end of the garden and it just terrified me and I couldn’t talk or look at him after that. Anyway. I changed boss through the month and my new boss was like the best friend of the tallest, so they spent their time together. And I actually told him that I was scared by Tallest. They found it fun “Hey ! Tallest ! The little girl said you could go and Fuck yourself” and I was scared I was going to get hit or anything like that but no they just laughed. Men are weird but ok. So time pass and because I spent a lot of time with my boss (seven hours a day in the same truck) we talked about a lot of things and I talked about my mother and why I was scared of loud noise because of her. And I don’t know if they stopped because of me but him and tallest screamed less and less and Every time they did out of habits or that some other men did one of them would tell me “Don’t be scared” “Stop being this anxious” “You have nothing to fear with us” “Relax, chicken” or Things like that. And I honestly don’t know if they truly did because of my confession or because of my reactions but it was really nice of them. I was in a room full of grown men doing dirty jokes and drinking beers and I actually felt safe.

I know this story is merely related to this post but it was important to me.

Plus, on Tumblr men are often depicted like monsters (not everytime and I agree on a lot of things), so I thought it was a good idea to show actually nice men (nice human beings).