Why I won’t “Just eat”

collarbones-please:

♡Hearing people ask, “Have you lost weight?’

♡Watching the numbers drop on the scale

♡Seeing my mom look proud when I tell her I need smaller pants

♡Looking and feeling healthier

♡Being the skinny friend

♡People asking for the ‘secret’ to how I lost weight

♡Seeing my collarbones and a gap between my thighs

♡Pulling off any outfit

♡Looking graceful when I dance

♡Wrapping my pinky and thumb around my wrist and still having room

♡To look in a mirror and not feel like crying

♡Thigh high socks and boots

♡The flat stomach

♡Not being embarrassed when I say my weight

♡Avoiding the feeling of regret I always have after eating

♡Seeing people stare as I walk down the hall to class

♡Hearing people talk about how skinny i’ve gotten behind my back

♡Big sweaters engulfing my body

♡Feeling confident 

♡Becoming thinspo, instead of just reblogging it

♡Stay safe angels♡