katyghost:

self harm

its extremely dangerous. i knew it was bad but yesterday my perspective changed drastically. of course when you see others self harm scars you become really protective but you never think about yourself the same way. you kinda just do it. but you never think about the “what if"s. you know, like ” what if the blade cut too deep?“ or “what if i cut a vein?” or something along these lines. well yesterday i wasnt thinking about it either until the blade went too deep. i started panicking like crazy but i didnt wanna tell anyone. i had a panic attack because i dont actually wanna die, i just wanna feel something. luckily i was fine but, again, what if something actually happened? if i cut a bit lower, but the deepness being the same i could be in the hospital right now. or just passed out since i dont wanna tell anyone. self harm really isnt a joke, please be safe and dont do it. your well being is important.