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desnaa:

Come along with me

And the butterflies and bees

We can wander through the forest

And do so as we please

Come along with me

To a cliff under a tree

Where we can gaze upon the water

As an everlasting dream

All of my collections

I’ll share them all with you

Maybe by next summer

We won’t have changed our tune

We’ll still want to be

With the butterflies and bees

Making up new numbers

And living so merrily

All of my collections

I’ll share them all with you

I’ll be here for you always

And always be with you

Come along with me

And the butterflies and bees

We can wander through the forest

And do so as we please

Living so merrily

shrinkingfairy42:

melancholicblooms:

savwillbeskinny:

can’t wait to hear my first:

– “you’re losing so much weight!”

– “you look so good, what are your routines?”

– “i think you should get a medium size, that large is too big for you!”

– “you’re getting a medium? that’s going to look huge on you!”

– “were out of the small size, sorry!”

– “you should get a size 25/0 in jeans!! you would look so good in them”

– “you literally have legs that go on for miles. i bet you run track.”

– “i don’t think you can fit a size small. get the extra small babe!”

– “you are so cute and dainty”

– “hey, that person over there is looking at you. go talk to them! you would look good together!!”

– “you are seriously goals. im so jealous!”

– “i bet i can pick you up”

– “here, get on my back. ill give you a piggy back ride. you’re practically weightless anyway.”

– “i bet you would look so fucking adorable in my sweater”

– “i know that you can wear anything and rock it. you’re the perfect size”

– “you have the perfect thigh gap. im jealous”

– “can you go on a date with me? you’re so beautiful.”

– “have you ever considered modeling? you would be perfect for it”

– “you should eat more. you deserve it!”

the list goes on… 

🖤

This is exactly what I needed

I’ve come to the conclusion that we all just want to be loved a little.

Update kind 18/09/18

❗❗TRIGGER WARNING: SELF HARM AND SELF HATE❗❗

Right so umm,,, I’m not okay. I’m just done with being fat and disgusting and a pig. I’m done being a bloody horrible dancer. I’m done being the fat / ugly / unwanted friend. I’m just done, 100%. I constantly feel anxious and like I’m annoying those around me. Self harm and cutting is always on my mind, but no one wants a girl who cuts her pain away.

They are perfect and amazing and incredible and I’d date them in a heartbeat. But they’re not ready and I gotta respect that. Still, there’s moments where I wish they were mine and that I could show them how much they nean to me. Then I’m reminded how alone I am and I try not to think about it.

Thing is, you asked how I was and I responded “I’m good thanks”, so I must be good, right? Just tired and done, wanting to sleep for a week

apathetic-androgyn:

Calores Needed to Maintain a BMI of 18.4 (Exactly Underweight)

Just in case you’re curious

Height:   |   Weight:   | Calories (E dominant – T dominant)

(E = Estrogen | T = Testosterone)

4′10″  –  88 lbs / 39 kg  –  1,463 / 1,691

4′11″  –  91 lbs / 41 kg  –  1,503 / 1,732

5′0″  –  94 lbs / 42 kg  –  1,544 / 1,772

5′1″  –  97.5 lbs / 44 kg  –  1,588 / 1,816

5′2″  –  100.5 lbs / 45.5 kg  –  1,628 / 1,856

5′3″  –  104 lbs / 47 kg  –  1,672 / 1,900

5′4″  –  107 lbs / 48 kg  –  1,712 / 1,941

5′5″  –  110.5 lbs / 50kg  –  1,756 / 1,984

5′6″  –  114 lbs / 52 kg  –  1,800 / 2,028

5′7″  –  117.5 lbs / 53 kg  –  1,843 / 2,072

5′8″  –  121 lbs / 55 kg  –  1,887 / 2,115

5′9″  –  124.5 lbs / 56 kg  –   1,931 / 2,159

5′10″  – 128 lbs / 58 kg  –  1,974 / 2,203

5′11″  –  132 lbs / 60 kg  –  2,021 / 2,249

6′0″  –  136 lbs / 62 kg  – 2,068 / 2,296

Sources: Healthiest weight at each height, BMI Calculator, Calorie Calculator

(Calories calculated using 19 y/o & Lightly Active plug-ins. Using the links provided you could also calculate how much to maintain your specific UGW)

I put estrogen dominant and testosterone dominant for those of us that are trans and may or may not be on hormone treatment

Stay Safe | Stay Hydrated

littlendelicate:

LET ME MAKE IT CLEAR FOR SOME OF YOU ED BITCHS:

  • just because your reasons your ed developed aren’t the same as another person, doEs nOT mean that their ed is any less valid than yours
  • eating disorders aren’t a fucking competition
  • your current weight being lower or higher than another persons- does NOT measure “who has more of an ed”
  • if someone isn’t losing weight with their ed, that doESNT mean that they dOnt have an ed !!! maybe they’re struggling in a cycle of fasting and binging and hating themselves constantly for it. you have no right to negate their ed
  • JUST DON’T COMPARE ANYONE ELSE’S EATING DISORDER TO YOURS

d-ainty-b-ones:

Reblog if:

– You support recovery.

– You support those in recovery.

– You support seeking help.

– You want  people to seek help.

– You think everyone is beautiful, regardless of their weight.

– Even if you yourself, aren’t seeking help or are in recovery, want others too.