I’m sHoOK

This week I thought I was doing terribly when it comes to keeping my weight down, I ate sweets and drank sugary drinks, was lazy and only watched movies instead of working out, I was basically just a sloth this whole week.

But when I woke up this morning and weighed myself I had lost 4 pounds during the week! I swear I have been blessed!

Reblog to be blessed like me! ~ 💕

my reality of my eating disorder

wannabeaskinnybitch-ana:

i spend the whole day binging and purging yesterdday. i ate over 8000 cals and was binging and purging from 11am to 8pm. i ate so much i couldnt move or even breathe. then i purged. and did that over and over and over again. by the end i ended up puking 7.8kg worth of food and i currently weigh 47.5kg. my face was swollen and my throat hurt so bad that just swallowing my own spit was painful.

this is now the morning after and my throat still hurts, im freezing and its sunny outside, and just walking is making me
dizzy.

im telling you this because people say im there “inspiration” or motivation” or just ask me for tips.

now i dont know what about that paragraph sounded appealing to you. because if you were to do what i do this would become your reality too

pearly-bones:

I will be thin⭐️🌟☀️✨⚡️💫🌙

🌙I will be thin⭐️🌟☀️✨⚡️💫

💫🌙I will be thin⭐️🌟☀️✨⚡️

⚡️💫🌙I will be thin⭐️🌟☀️✨

✨⚡️💫🌙I will be thin⭐️🌟☀️

☀️✨⚡️💫🌙I will be thin⭐️🌟

🌟☀️✨⚡️💫🌙I will be thin⭐️

⭐️🌟☀️✨⚡️💫🌙I will be thin

ttchanglfe:

bestestwaffle:

the-gayest-potato-chip:

erlenmeyertrashofsandersides:

no-thanks-boo:

ouranxiousthings:

reblog if you:

– flinch away when someone touches you.

– panic when you accidentally break an object.

– get scared when someone walks behind you.

– feel your heart rate increase at every sudden noise.

– are easily panicked by slightly-louder-than-normal sounds.

– stare apprehensively at your bedroom doorway for hours at night.

– have trouble making eye contact with people.

– always feel either too mature or too immature for your age.

– simultaneously crave and be terrified of physical contact.

because i do all of these

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*nervous laughter *

… *awkward laugh*

Okay so i wasn’t physically abused, but i was emotionally abused and always feared that i would be physically and so i do most-if not all of these things.

I worked last month and it was in an environment full of men (we we’re like 3 women and I was the youngest) and they all were taller than me and there was this one in particular that was the tallest and he had a deep deep voice. Anyway. They were all screaming for nothing (they communicated that way I assume) which made me jump a lot because loud noises scare me. And one day the taller screamed just in front of me to talk to a colleague at the other end of the garden and it just terrified me and I couldn’t talk or look at him after that. Anyway. I changed boss through the month and my new boss was like the best friend of the tallest, so they spent their time together. And I actually told him that I was scared by Tallest. They found it fun “Hey ! Tallest ! The little girl said you could go and Fuck yourself” and I was scared I was going to get hit or anything like that but no they just laughed. Men are weird but ok. So time pass and because I spent a lot of time with my boss (seven hours a day in the same truck) we talked about a lot of things and I talked about my mother and why I was scared of loud noise because of her. And I don’t know if they stopped because of me but him and tallest screamed less and less and Every time they did out of habits or that some other men did one of them would tell me “Don’t be scared” “Stop being this anxious” “You have nothing to fear with us” “Relax, chicken” or Things like that. And I honestly don’t know if they truly did because of my confession or because of my reactions but it was really nice of them. I was in a room full of grown men doing dirty jokes and drinking beers and I actually felt safe.

I know this story is merely related to this post but it was important to me.

Plus, on Tumblr men are often depicted like monsters (not everytime and I agree on a lot of things), so I thought it was a good idea to show actually nice men (nice human beings).

Space Asks

ask-me-mes:

Comet- What are you currently frustrated about?

Black Hole- What are you most afraid of?

Galaxy- Do you have any nicknames? What are they?

Star- What song(s) do you feel describes you?

Moon- Are you currently reading any books? If so, what book(s)?

Planets- If you could go anywhere, where would you go?

Mercury- Describe your aesthetic.

Venus- What’s your favorite tv show?

Earth- If you could be anyone else for a day, who would you want to be?

Mars- If you could change one thing about yourself, what would you change?

Jupiter- If you had to pick one color to use for an entire week, what color would you choose?

Saturn- How far would you go for those you care about?

Uranus- What would you say is your greatest achievement?

Neptune- Describe yourself in one sentence.

Pluto- If you could meet anyone, alive or dead, who would you meet?

Constellations- If you could have one talent, what would you want it to be? (can be magical or not)

Asteroid- When you die, what do you want to be done with your body?

Aquarius- What’s a topic you enjoy learning about?

Aquila- Do you prefer to read books or watch movies?

Aries- What is something you enjoy doing?

Auriga- If you had to pick one villain from any media, who would you rather have to face and why?

Bootes- If you could have any animal, wild or not, fake or not, which would you want?

Cancer- How do you want to be remembered?

Canis Major- How many friends do you have?

Capricornus- What’s a song lyric that you relate to?

Cassiopeia- What’s your favorite quote?

Cygnus- If you could go back to any time period for a couple days, when/where would you want to go?

Gemini- Do you have any siblings? How many?

Leo- If you could change the way any movie was made, which movie would you change?

Libra- If you could talk to your past self, what would you tell yourself?

Lyra- Would you rather be feared or loved?

Orion- What’s your favorite type of weather?

Pegasus- What’s your favorite music genre?

Perseus- What’s your favorite movie genre?

Pisces- Describe someone you love without saying their name.

Sagittarius- What do you do when you don’t feel well? What do you eat/drink?

Scorpius- If you had to pick someone to betray you, who would you pick?

Taurus- What makes you feel comfortable?

Ursa Major- If you had to pick any job to have, what job would you want?

Virgo- What do you value the most- artistic ability/creativity, musical ability, athletic ability, intellect, or work ethic?

Neutron- Are you more of a leader or a follower?

Supernova- How do you feel about yourself?

Supergiant- What’s something you like about yourself?

Red Giant- Would you get into a debate/argument with someone if you heard them saying something you disagree with or know to be wrong, or would you stay silent?

Red Dwarf- What’s your favorite smell? What smell makes you feel most comfortable?

Protostar- Give a random fact about yourself.

sᴋɪɴɴʏ sᴇᴘᴛᴇᴍʙᴇʀ

dear-clove:

❀ ᴏʙᴊᴇᴄᴛɪᴠᴇs

reach my ugw of 90 pounds

no late or missing homework

perfectly decorated room

healthy skin and hair

write a song in korean

❅ ᴅᴀɪʟʏ ʀᴜʟᴇs

always wake up by 10am

never eat over 1000 calories

refuse food at least once

water fast for at least 16 hours

✩ ᴛᴏ ᴋᴇᴇᴘ ɪɴ ᴍɪɴᴅ

shoot for 500-900 calories daily

try to only have one meal a day

clean my room once a week

finish all my homework by tuesdays

food = bad; empty = good

don’t focus all of your mental energy on food

i am better than eating. i have control.

♬ ʀᴇᴀsᴏɴs

to be the smallest in any given classroom

to radiate a delicate aura

to feel cozy when wrapped up in blankets

to be pure and free of unnecessary energy

sᴋɪɴɴʏ sᴇᴘᴛᴇᴍʙᴇʀ

dear-clove:

❀ ᴏʙᴊᴇᴄᴛɪᴠᴇs

reach my ugw of 90 pounds

no late or missing homework

perfectly decorated room

healthy skin and hair

write a song in korean

❅ ᴅᴀɪʟʏ ʀᴜʟᴇs

always wake up by 10am

never eat over 1000 calories

refuse food at least once

water fast for at least 16 hours

✩ ᴛᴏ ᴋᴇᴇᴘ ɪɴ ᴍɪɴᴅ

shoot for 500-900 calories daily

try to only have one meal a day

clean my room once a week

finish all my homework by tuesdays

food = bad; empty = good

don’t focus all of your mental energy on food

i am better than eating. i have control.

♬ ʀᴇᴀsᴏɴs

to be the smallest in any given classroom

to radiate a delicate aura

to feel cozy when wrapped up in blankets

to be pure and free of unnecessary energy

skinnigurlinside:

💖September rules💖

Disclaimer: these rules are just for me to follow. Please don’t feel like you have to do these things. Stay safe! 💕

Take before and after photos on the 1st and 30th.

Stretch every day.

No more than 600 calories per day.

NO BINGING!!!!

No drinking your calories. Only water/tea/coffee/diet sodas allowed.

Fast at least one day a week minimum.

Weigh every day. Record weight in bullet journal.

Take multivitamins every day.

Brush teeth every day. If your body isn’t perfect, your smile should be.

Always have nails painted. If they start to chip, remove and paint again.

Never show negative emotion to others. Only let them see you happy.

Read or listen to music for an hour a day. Spend some time away from your phone.

Dress as trendy as you can. Never leave the house looking a mess.

Keep bedroom/house/apartment clean at all times.

Do some form of exercise every day, even if it’s something small.

STAY HYDRATED!!!

Moisturize and practice proper skin care.

Limit fast food to once a week if at all.

Post to Tumblr every day. Don’t let your followers down.

No cheat days. NONE.

Gonna follow these

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