fuckedup-punkedup:

i hate the feeling when you need to talk to someone but you can’t talk to family/friends without being a burden

and you can’t call a crisis line because you’re ‘not bad enough yet’

so i’m just sitting here trying not to spiral worse, but unable to feel better

about to cut for the first time in months, the longest I’ve ever gone in my entire life since I was 10 years old. 

I’m crying and everything is shit. 

thinbillionaire:

“You don’t have an ed bc youre too fat”

“You eat so u can’t possibly be anorexic”

“You can’t see your bones so you can’t be anorexic”

“You don’t struggle with an ed bc you’re a boy”

“you’re not really sick bc you haven’t been in the hospital”

‼️ EATING DISORDERS COME IN ALL SHAPES AND SIZES, DON’T BE AN ASSHOLE JUST BECAUSE YOURE UNEDUCATED‼️

I was hungry at first, but then, after a while, I got used to it, I guess. And I liked having the extra time to study. And the more I thought about it, the more I figured.. if I don’t need lunch, maybe I don’t need breakfast or dinner, either. And then, it just kind of became a new project for me, you know, seeing how long I could go without eating any food. Not eating was all I thought about. I didn’t care about the fact that I didn’t have any friends. All I cared about was making it through another day without eating.

Emma Chota [Red Band Society] (via confessions-and-obsessions)

Tricks I use for fasting around family

teddybearpinic:

maskdrowning:

#1. Sleep through meals. My parents know I sleep a ton so this isn’t hard for me. I mostly sleep through breakfast and dinner.
#2.Bring food up to your room. Not prepackaged food because there is a chance I will open it. I bring up a paper plate with what my mom makes for dinner and throw it in my trash. Also works with dumping the food off a dinner plate in the trash so there is evidence you finished it.
#3. Buy black trash bags. You can see the food through a white/transparent one.
#4. Buy snacks at the store and say you ate and it they don’t believe you. Show them the receipt.
#5. Dump the snacks in your trash so you can put the wrappers in the trash that’s around your family.
#6. If you cant resist the food in your trash, dump nail polish remover on it or spray it with perfume. Something toxic so it repels you.
#7. Take out your trash as soon as you get the chance. If you let it too long it will start to smell and raise suspicion.
#8. Make noise in the kitchen at night like you’re making food. If I slept through dinner, my parents expect me to eat when I wake up. I usually make popcorn, since it is noisy in the microwave. Or pour a bowl of cereal but don’t add the milk. Later I just put the cereal in a ziplock bag so I can eat it when I am not fasting.,
#9. The “I don’t feel well” excuse doesn’t work on my family. So I try to avoid it.
#10. Camp up in your room all day. If you usually don’t stay away from family all day, I don’t recommend this because they will wonder why you are being so distant.
#11. Try to make plans when ever they are going to to eat. My friends don’t push me to eat so I try and hang with them while my family is out. Or just say you are going out and get ready, but not actually leave the house.
12. Exercise during dinner prep. The smell permeates my room and I don’t want to be in there so I go for a walk.
13. Make dinner sometimes. Show that you do like making food. When I’m not fasting, I typically make vegan food.
14. Do self care. Say my nails are wet so I can’t eat yet. Take a bath, shave, do your makeup.

These are what I use to hide from my parents. Hope it helps!
Stay safe xx

Super helpful x

Wanna know what having anorexia is really like?

shirtstiesandcolouredeyes:

hisicequeen:

*sleeping as much as possible to keep yourself from binging
*drinking so much green tea or coffee on an empty stomach that your hands shake
*pushing on your stomach to stop the growling
*exercising until your legs feel weak
*peeing 40 times a day
*weighing yourself daily
*having to say no to foods you once loved
*hiding your illness from family/boyfriend/friends
*choking on giant vitamins
*wearing jackets in the summer because you’re always cold
*always being covered in bruises
*binging when you’re alone…
*…and then trying to puke or shit the guilt away
*staring at thinspo literally 24/7
*crying when the number on the scale just won’t move no matter how long you fast
*feeling guiltily proud of all your symptoms

This is not a joke