Reasons not to eat
1. Your legs will appear longer if they are thinner
2. Your face wont be as fat
3. Collar bones
4. Look good in a swimsuit
5. Being able to be picked up even by your friends
6. The number on the scale is one to be proud of
7. Hugging someone and they can wrap their arms all the way around you
8. You look good in everything
9. Big sweatshirts
10. You appear taller
11. Your arms wont jiggle
12. Your belly button will stretch out
13. He will have something to be proud of
14. Self Control
15. little wrists
16. hip bones
17. Imagine laying on your bed in cute size xs underwear and looking down at yourself and seeing your hip bones, your skin stretched over them
18. imagine your tiny wrists and how cute theyll look with big sweatshirts hanging to your knuckles
19. Imagine your ankles being so thin that sometimes socks just fall adorably to your boney feet
20. Imagine posting a photo on instagram and all your followers and friends commenting heart eyes and OMG YOU LOOK SO GOOD
21. Imagine seeing an old friend and them saying they barely recognized you
22. Imagine your spine peaking through your skin so slightly making your look elegant and beautiful
23. Imagine seeing your ribs just enough when you barely breathe in
24. Imagine other girls envy and how much theyll want to be you when you say how much you weigh
25. Imagine being able to say your measurements are 34-23-34
26. Imagine your jawbones being strong and pronounced
27. Imagine tiny tank tops
28. Imagine size 0 pants sliding on and off as easy as sweatpants
29. Imagine people wanting to be you
30. Imagine being someone else’s thinspo
31. Imagine eating a slice of cake and not feeling like shit
32. Think about how you will be able to sit without that pudge of fat hanging off of your stomach
33. Think about looking good in every photo
34. Think about a flat tummy
35. Think about your sternum bones being pronounced
35. Think about your collar bones drowning in fat right now
YOU DONT NEED TO EAT RIGHT NOW! FILL YOURSELF WITH WATER! SHORT TERM FLAVOR AND SATISFACTION ONLY TO HATE YOURSELF LATER OR LONG TERM HAPPINESS.
my steps for not eating/binging
after school:
- get changed
- do NOT go to the kitchen
- drink 5 cups water
- go for a run
- shower
- listen to music + study
skip dinner:
- say i’m not hungry
- drink 5 cups water
- go for a walk on the treadmill until 7:30 pm
at night:
- drink 5 cups of water
- chew some gum
- put in earphones and listen to music at a high volume
- look at thinspo
- study
what NOT to do:
- convince yourself you deserve the food
- go to the kitchen
- think food is the answer to stress
- go on distracting websites like youtube
This isn’t glamorous. It’s crying at 3 am because you’re so hungry and can’t sleep.
It’s doing so much exercise after eating a single apple that the room spins and you can’t get up.
It’s clutching a water bottle like a lifeline because you don’t want to gain water weight and when your stomach isn’t full of water it hurts because you’re hungry.
It’s watching your friends and family enjoy a nice meal and either finding some way to get our of eating it or having a plate and hating yourself after.
It’s eating ten calories over your 500 calorie limit and contemplating suicide.
It’s reaching your big goal weight and still hating what you see in the mirror.
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hope your pets stay healthy in 2017
I almost didn’t blog this and felt guilty
Not risking it
Wish this would’ve come a little bit sooner 😞
I go from wanting to never eat again to wanting to eat normally to wanting to eat everything in the kitchen and then back to not wanting to eat again multiple times a day and I’m just very tired of it okay
This.
best things to hear
“have you lost weight?”
“you should eat something”
“you look so small!!”
“i could pick you up with a finger!”
“you’re not crushing me, you’re so light!”
“damn girl/boy eat a cheeseburger!”
“when’s the last time you ate something?”
“i would KILL for your body!”
“i dunno if my clothes will fit you”
“i think you’re gonna need a smaller size”
“i don’t know if we have anything in your size, you’re so skinny!”
“here’s a 0/00/XS”
“i think a strong breeze could blow you away!”
“you’re my body inspiration!”
“damn she/he/they got skinny!”
“man you should have seen what they used to look like”
“HAVE YOU LOST WEIGHT?”
Imagine dropping 10 pounds in the next month.
Imagine your friends noticing a change.
Imagine them being *worried* about you.
About how small you are.
About how thin you’ve gotten.
About how tiny you’ve become.
Imagine them worrying if you’re ok but wondering how you did it.
Skip that next meal and that could be you.
21 days
It’s supposed to take 21 days before doing something becomes a habit.
So just think.
21 days without binging could be a lifetime of self-control.
21 days of not eating after 6 could mean always waking up skinny.
21 days of actually working out could mean a lifetime of thin.
21 days.
☁️
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Every time I open my tumblr, I’m terrified. Terrified that I opened up this horrific world to someone else. That some young girl who was feeling fat found my blog and started following ana. I feel selfish and wrong when I reblog pictures of thin women. I don’t want to be promoting this illness, but I don’t want to be in this alone either. It’s not like I can just quit now. So I will continue, despite the fear. Just promise me you’ll be safe. I never want to be responsible for someone else’s grief.
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