if you’re looking for reasons to stay alive, reasons to get help, reasons to start the long, challenging but so worth it road of recovery, here it is.
if you kill yourself, you won’t be able to tell your story. you won’t be able to say, “look how god damn close i was to ending it all, but here i am now.”
if you kill yourself, you family, friends, pets, teachers, religious figures, school community, people you don’t even know directly will be affected and touched. they will be lost and devastated without you.
if you kill yourself, you’ll never find out if things got better, and how your life turned out. did you graduate college? get married, buy that house and have kids? did you get that dog breed you’ve always wanted? do you have grandchildren? what do their lives entail? although these things seem impossible, somewhat undesirable right now, hold on.
Who will be the next Kylie Jenner in a few years? What’s going to be the song of the year in year 2021? What shows are coming to broadway? What pop stars and celebrities haven’t gotten their big break yet?
If you kill yourself, you’ll never be able to get that tattoo. go to concerts, meet your favorite celebrity. travel the world. swim with dolphins, scuba dive, hang glide, skydive.. what ever your heart desires. you wont be able to do it.
Suicide is a permanent solution for a temporary problem. if you’re reading this and you’re suicidal, hang on. Please, the world needs your light, your knowledge, your compassion, we need you alive. Things get better. they always do, although it might be challenging. recovery is possible.
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Heat extra virgin olive oil in a wok (lol or a frying pan) (1 tablespoon is enough), add the vegetables (the sliced garlic, julienned onion, carrots and cabbage, and soy sprouts) and the soy sauce sauce. Cook for about 5 minutes over medium-high heat.
Follow the directions of your rice paper or soak it in hot water for 3-5 seconds
Add 2 tablespoons of filling near the middle, and tightly roll the wrapper, fold over the left side, fold over the right side, then the top and bottom, and paint a little water along the edge and close it up.
Heat plenty of extra virgin olive oil in the wok and when it’s very hot, add the spring rolls and cook them for about 1 minute or until both sides are golden brown.
🍯 i (every single day, without fail) drink 6 cups of water a day. you always see “drink water!!” and “lots of water!” everywhere, but it’s the truth y’all! water helps immensely.
🍯 i never eat more than 800 calories. i typically tend to eat far less, but (unless i slip up and binge) i never eat more that 800 calories.
🍯 i work out at the very least 3 times a week! you don’t have to, but i go to the gym. it’s very easy to work out from the comfort of your own home, i actually used to do it.
🥀 note: i have a job where i’m on my feet most of the day, so, if you don’t have a job you can increase the workout as you see fit!
🍯 i tea/water fast at least once a month, but usually twice. every two weeks if i’m doing poorly with weight loss and once a month if i’m consistent like i am now! if it’s really bad and i’m binging repeatedly i fast once a week.
🍯 i don’t deprive myself. if there’s something you’re craving, or even something that’ll satisfy your sweet tooth, eat it! if it isn’t going to induce a binge, have a couple bites.
🥀 i buy these 100 cal ice creams from my work and they’ve changed my life.
🍯 i never skip any meals unless i’m getting close to my calorie cap. skipping meals can damage your metabolism and make it even harder to lose weight, especially if you skip breakfast! never skip breakfast.
🍯 salads are not as healthy as you think! unless you’re someone who can eat a salad with a lil lemon juice, salads are dangerous territory. the dressings are always, always packed on and loaded with hidden calories. a nice (no red) meat/seafood and some veggies is a much better option when eating out.
🥀 note: if you’re vegetarian or vegan, some restaurants will have options for you. if not, check the sides! you can order a few vegetables and make your own mix.
🍯 i never eat anything i don’t know the exact calories of. even when i (rarely) eat pasta, i count every single noodle in the box and divide them into serving size. if i’m eating a fruit or veggie, i cut it up and measure it into a cup. (or ½ or ¼, you get the idea)
🍯 i keep myself busy. you tend to eat, binge, ect when you get bored, so don’t let yourself be bored! download an app, go for a walk, play a video game, read a book, go shopping! anything to keep yourself busy so you aren’t overeating.
🥀 note: i don’t encourage restricting, when i say ‘overeating’ i mean eating above the recommended calorie intake for your height and weight.
🍯 i n e v e r use sugar. there’s no reason to use sugar when you can substitute with a low/zero cal sweetener.
🍯 i, usually, meal prep. meal prep is a great way to plan out your meals so you can keep track of calories and such.
🥀 if you guys want a small post on meal prep and where you can get good supplies/budgeting/grocery lists let me know! ill do some regular recipes and then some vegitarian and vegan!
🍯 i weigh myself in the morning, as soon as i wake up and sometimes (this is nasty, i know) after i poop. that’s your TRUE weight, when your body is completely empty and just itself. but i weight myself every morning without fail.
🥀 i weigh myself every day because it keeps me motivated when i see the pounds, half pounds ect drop off.
🍯 i use the app my fitness pal! it’s a super easy way to keep track of calories and exercise, and it even counts your steps!
🍯 i watch a looooot of youtubers who binge. this may sound nasty, or weird, but i like to watch other people binge because it makes me want to binge less. it sort of satisfies my need to binge in a way.
🥀 if you do find yourself binging, record yourself. it makes you want to do it so much less.
🍯 i sleep 6-10 hours every night. sleep is super important, okay, trust me. just sleep. take a melatonin n snooze.
💐 with all of these together, i’ve even losing anywhere between 2.5 and 5 pounds a week. remember that recovery is always possible and stay safe 💐
i do all of these and end up losing a lot, but 6 cups a day? that’s not really anything, i drink 16 cups a day (a gallon a day) AT LEAST, it’s supposed to aid weight loss, clear skin, etc. but yeah when i do all of this it actually works really well.
Food log: 100718🌱
Fifth day of #gonna fix it
Sw: 55.7kg Cw:
🌱Limit: 600
Fasted from midnight til 6pm
(Breakfast and lunch skipped)
Gum = 4
🌱Dinner: 583
Risotto (chicken and garlic) = 233
Chips and cheese = 200
Muesli bar = 150
Fast went well, drank 2.25L of water and had 1 piece of gum.