i hope one day you are at peace with yourself. i hope you can take a shower without crying and you can close your eyes without thinking about your funeral. i hope one day you start singing in the shower again and are happy for no reason. i hope you get better, because you really deserve to.
🌸Please reblog if🌸
🌼you are at least 16 years old
🌼you have several mental health issues
🌼you post also text content not only pictures
🌼you are over/or 5’6
🌼you struggle during fasts
🌼don’t live this romanticised perfect ana life
I need more blogs to follow I can relate to🌸
All but age and height, im 15 and 5’2 ish
I have the thoughts of an Ed, but just not the body
Reblog this If:
You’re ashamed of your weight
Youve been called fat before
You have thought of killing yourself
You have self harmed
You are trying to lose 10+ poundsI feel exposed, I’m like all of these… I don’t think that’s good 😬
Reblog this If:
You’re ashamed of your weight
Youve been called fat before
You have thought of killing yourself
You have self harmed
You are trying to lose 10+ poundsI feel exposed, I’m like all of these… I don’t think that’s good 😬
Me: *constantly thinks about calories*
Me: *fast for 16 hours plus*
Me: *thinks about purging anything I eat*
Me: *worries about my weight constantly*
Me: *thinks eating anywhere near 1000 calories is unacceptable*
Me: *constantly feels shitty and guilty about eating*
Me: I’m obviously faking, I don’t have an ED or a problem with food
Don’t kill yourself. You honestly don’t know how loved you are. I know how it feels to be blinded by the pain of suicidal thoughts: They’re evil and twist reality. You genuinely think people will be better or won’t miss you so much it makes them physically sick. You’re wrong. Now I know how it feels to be left behind I will forever fight not to be suicidal ever again. You can beat this. People need you. I need you to stay. Please talk. Reach out to someone. Anyone. The right therapy can be life changing. Your life is worth more than you could ever know. People love harder than they show. Please don’t go.
Please tell me I’m not the only one who hasn’t eaten in awhile and decides “I don’t really need to be/want to be skinny that bad I might as well eat what I want” but then I do it and I eat too much and then I get so guilty and I feel disgusting and the cycle continues again and again
Okay, but like, I know my body isn’t terrible.
I know I’m not disgustingly fat, and that I could very easily rock how I look right now if I was confident in myself.
Even if I know this, it doesn’t stop me from seeing the fact that, while my body isn’t ‘terrible’, it isn’t ‘good’. While I’m not ‘fat’, I’m not ‘skinny’. I’m not ugly but I’m not pretty either, I’m not huge but I’m still too big and I could be so much better. I could look so much better than just ‘not terrible’.
Why is this so accurate
Food log⚘ 230618
Fasted: 14 hrs
Skipped breakfast
Lunch and dinner: 997
Chicken, lettuce and cheese burger = 498 ish
Had two
Snack: 200?
Total: over 1000
Was 53.6kg yesterday, now 55kg ish