♾eh update? + plan♾

So dance is starting up again, school starts in a week and dinner dance is just under a month away. Been in a bad depressive episode so time to get my shit together 🙂

Plan:

Hygiene:

•Brush teeth morning and night

•Shower at least every two days

•Brush hair every day

•Wash hair once week

•Clean clothes each day

School:

•Keep update to date

•2 hours homework each night minimum

•Average B+’s or A’s

•Keep record book organised

•Nothing from canteen except fruit

Home:

•Be respectful/co-operate with family (no agreements)

•Keep room reasonably clean

•Homework at desk not on bed

•Help out with chores / farm work

Food/Drink:

•2L water each day

•Max 1000 weekdays

•Max 1200 weekends

•Diet coke and real fruit juices only

•80% healthy, 20% unhealthy

Exercise:

•Home workout each day

•Stretch 10-20 mins each day

•2km run daily (except Tuesday and Wednesday)

•Put 100% into every dance class

•Practice barre work on Saturdays (30 – 60 mins minimum)

•Practice centre/class work on Thursdays (30 – 60 mins minimum)

Rant??¿¿

I lost one of my closest friends. She was basically my sister. Yet you don’t really give a fuck because “I never really liked her anyway”. Oh wow really? Didn’t really like her huh? Well guess what, I fucking did. She is my sister and I am hurting. But I guess it doesn’t matter, you don’t really care so why should I.

Update?💘

DATE: 30/03/2019

Heya guys! It’s been a while since I last updated. I’m not doing so good atm, kinda falling apart but I’m coping so that’s good. I have a boyfriend now (been dating 2 and a bit months) and that’s going good 🙂 Still tired all the time and I’m seriously off track,,, I’m gonna make a plan this weekend and then back on top of everything.

STAT SAFE💕 FEEL FREE TO MESSAGE ME IF YOU NEED TO CHAT💕💕

Vent💘 (self harm)

DATE: 24/02/2019

I really want to self harm so bad right now. I just, really feel the need to ruin my body and “paint red lines with silver brushes”. I’m so tired and done. Bottling everything is making me fall apart and shatter

Stay safe everyone, feel free to message me anytime💘