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Update💗

Cw: 54.6kg Gw: 45kg

Gone down from 56kg to 54.4kg so that’s good. Hoping to lose 3kg or more a week between now and dinner dance in order to be 48kg (dinner dance is 1 month away)

#fixing myself

Finally getting my weight back under control. I still have a long way to go but I’m getting there.

Weight this morning: 56.7kg

Weight now (10:46pm): 54.8kg

°remember that recovery is always an option, stay safe💗°

So I’m cleaning my room tomorrow and I’m scared. It’s a huge task and i dont think i can do it. I dont know if I can let things go. I dont know whats in my room. I’m so emotionally attached to things, what if i can’t let things go? What if I keep everything and dont get rid of anything? Keep things I don’t need? I’ll get annoyed and frustrated and I’ll get mad at people and myself and…. I’m so scared, i dont want to hurt anyone but as always, I’ll fuck things up

So my older sister recently moved into her own home (she’s 19) and honestly I’m kinda jealous of her. I want that freedom and independence. I want to live by myself and decorate my own house and backyard and live how I want to. I can’t wait to move out

If I ever kms, I do not want people’s sympathy. I do not want the people who obviously don’t like me/don’t even know me to suddenly be like “she was a lovely girl, so kind. I miss her so much”, I don’t want their bullshit. I could only hope that those I love wouldn’t be too hurt and that they could move on and live life to the fullest.