Tag: mine

Update

Date: 04/08/2018

Been off track, fixing it starting tomorrow.

~The week ahead~

🌵Sunday🌵

900

Rehearsal from 9:30 til 4:30

🌵Monday🌵

700

Rehearsal from 9:30 til 5:00

🌵Tuesday🌵

800

Rehearsal from 3:45 til 5:30

Dance from 5:15 til 6:45

🌵Wednesday🌵

700

Rehearsal from 9:00 til 3:30

Dance from 5:15 til 8:00

🌵Thursday🌵

800

Performance at 6

🌵Friday🌵

600

Performance at 6

🌵Saturday🌵

700

Homework

Performance at 6

🌵Sunday🌵

800

Homework

~Rules~

☉Drink 2L of water; seriously you’ve seen what water can do so drink it

☉skip meals when possible

☉only eat around others, never alone

☉only healthy foods; no fast or junk food

☉weigh self twice week (Monday and Thursday)

Meal plan🍉

*Disclaimer: this is strictly for me and no one else, please seek help*

Date: 26/07/18

Limit: 500

🍑Breakfast: 105🍑

Banana (105)

🍑Lunch: 130🍑

Apple (80)

2 carrots (50~)

🍑Dinner: 200🍑

Quiche (200~)

🍑Total: 435🍑

🍉Each day🍉

Drink 2L of water

Walk 9,000 steps

Put effort into appearance

Update:

This week I’m basically living by myself and that means I’m in complete control of what I eat and burn. I will regain self control. I will lose weight

Update: the foods I can eat are bananas, apples, strawberry yogurt and carrots. These foods are between 50 and 150 calories. I will only eat these food and no others. All other food will make me gain 5kg and continue keeping me fat

Rant kinda

☁21/07/2018☁

A friend just accidentally sent a video showing her self harm (on her upper arms) and I deadass just thought, “my self harm isn’t bad enough, I should cut from the inner top to the inner bottom of my arm”. I know I can’t becausw I have some still healing but fuck, I want to.

Rant

☁20/07/2018☁

I feel like I don’t have anyone to talk to. I know that’s not true but i feel alone. Like, my friend is trying to recover and is going through their own things and i dont want to burden them with mine/make them worse, person a and person b are doing good and i dont want to bother them/bring them down, person c has her issues and i dont trust her enough to speak about everything and person d has suffered before and I don’t want them to suffer again. I’ve just been bottling things up and using unhealthly coping methods (cutting, eating disorder, isolation). I honestly don’t know what to do anymore

So it takes 3 months to drastically change your appearance. In just 3 months I can turn heads and finally be at my ugw. I can do this, from 16/07/18 to 16/10/18, 3 months. I will reach my ugw

☉70 day diet: day three

Date: 13/07/18

Sw: 53.9kg Cw:

❗Limit: 300❗

☉Breakfast: 0

  • Skipped

☉Lunch: 550

  • Egg, bacon and cheese muffin = ~150
  • Large chai milkshake = ~250
  • Straight cut chips and sause = ~150

☉Snack: 300

  • Biscuits = ~300

☉Dinner: 500

  • 2 pizza slices and chips = ~500

☉Total: 1350

Really bad day today. Planned to go out with friend for lunch and ate befoee hand. Ate too much today in general. Fasting tomorrow hopefully

☉70 day diet: day two

Date: 12/07/18

Sw: 53.9kg Cw: 52.5kg

❗Limit: 400❗

☉Breakfast: 0

  • Skipped

☉Lunch: 0

  • Skipped

☉Snack: 101

  • 2 cheds biscuits = 80
  • 5 cherries = 21

☉Dinner: 253

  • 1 cup mixed vegetables = 118
  • Lasagna 100g = 135

☉Total: 354

☉70 day diet: day one

Date: 11/07/18

Sw: 53.9kg Cw: 53.3kg

❗Limit: 500❗

☉Breakfast: 0

  • Skipped

☉Lunch: 0

  • Skipped

☉Snack: 84

  • Two arnotts cheds biscuits = 80
  • One cherry = 4

☉Dinner: 305

  • One bubble n squeak = 172
  • 100g crinkle cut chips = 131
  • Salt = 2

☉Total: 389