♾eh update? + plan♾

So dance is starting up again, school starts in a week and dinner dance is just under a month away. Been in a bad depressive episode so time to get my shit together 🙂

Plan:

Hygiene:

•Brush teeth morning and night

•Shower at least every two days

•Brush hair every day

•Wash hair once week

•Clean clothes each day

School:

•Keep update to date

•2 hours homework each night minimum

•Average B+’s or A’s

•Keep record book organised

•Nothing from canteen except fruit

Home:

•Be respectful/co-operate with family (no agreements)

•Keep room reasonably clean

•Homework at desk not on bed

•Help out with chores / farm work

Food/Drink:

•2L water each day

•Max 1000 weekdays

•Max 1200 weekends

•Diet coke and real fruit juices only

•80% healthy, 20% unhealthy

Exercise:

•Home workout each day

•Stretch 10-20 mins each day

•2km run daily (except Tuesday and Wednesday)

•Put 100% into every dance class

•Practice barre work on Saturdays (30 – 60 mins minimum)

•Practice centre/class work on Thursdays (30 – 60 mins minimum)

Rant?¿ trigger warning

I want to cut my arms and thighs and just,,, not think about anything. I don’t feel good enough; grades aren’t good enough, not skinny enough, not good enough at anything, heck I don’t even feel like I’m “sick” enough or “bad” enough. I dont even feel like I hurt myself “bad” enough. I’m so fucking tried and done with this bullshit. I don’t want to say it but I’m hurting, and although it’s hurting me, I don’t want to hurt you. This is just how it is I guess, I’m hurting myself trying to protect you.

making a new plan🌻

making a plan tomorrow, been wayy off track. probs gonna make tomorrow a liquid fast day,,, if anyone has any exercise/diet plan or tips they wanna share, I’m all ears☺

Date: 11/04/2019

Update💎 trigger warning❗

Alrighty, its been a while. Been self harming recently (was clean for two weeks) and low key on track as I’ve been drinking 2L of water every day and eating fairly healthy. A friend’s bday tomorrow and the next day so imma try to eat healthy and let myself enjoy the two days. When I come home (12/01/19) I’ll restrict again slightly and then on 14/01/19 I’ll start the A.I.T diet. I’ll make a post sometime before the 14th about the diet and how I’ll track my progress

Stay safe lovelies💕💕

Update

Date: 04/08/2018

Been off track, fixing it starting tomorrow.

~The week ahead~

🌵Sunday🌵

900

Rehearsal from 9:30 til 4:30

🌵Monday🌵

700

Rehearsal from 9:30 til 5:00

🌵Tuesday🌵

800

Rehearsal from 3:45 til 5:30

Dance from 5:15 til 6:45

🌵Wednesday🌵

700

Rehearsal from 9:00 til 3:30

Dance from 5:15 til 8:00

🌵Thursday🌵

800

Performance at 6

🌵Friday🌵

600

Performance at 6

🌵Saturday🌵

700

Homework

Performance at 6

🌵Sunday🌵

800

Homework

~Rules~

☉Drink 2L of water; seriously you’ve seen what water can do so drink it

☉skip meals when possible

☉only eat around others, never alone

☉only healthy foods; no fast or junk food

☉weigh self twice week (Monday and Thursday)

Update?

So i have zero idea what I weigh at the moment but i gotta get to like 50kg before term 3. It’s 18th June so i have around a month. Majority of my year level went on camp like 2 weeks ago and I won’t see them til next term so hopefully I’ll blow them away be being some what skinny. I will reach my goal, I can do this💓