thinner-isthewinner:

kevingetshealthy:

Here’s to the kids that didn’t develop an eating disorder bc they wanted to lose weight. Here’s to people who starved to feel like they were in control. Here’s to people who only know how to cope by cutting out food completely. Here’s to people who just might feel like they don’t deserve to eat due to abuse or trauma. I hope you get better.

This is how my eating disorder started, i didnt start out to lose weight or become skinny. I started starving to be in control of something, because im unable to control my own safety. now i will admit i have been becoming obsessed with being skinny and all the numbers. But nothing will ever beat that satisfying feeling of being in control.