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WHAT THEY DONT TELL YOU:

Social media defines people with eating disorders as pale, stick thin, and often with huge thigh gaps, but what social media decides not to tell everybody is so fucking different.

When we think of anorexia we think of noneating individuals, who refuse to eat and who exercise to much, WANNA KNOW THE TRUTH THOUGH?!

It’s so fucking not.

It’s loosing all of your friends because who can have friends when there’s a chance you will have to eat with them

It’s when you play with your hair and it falls out

It’s the moment you see stars and your vision becomes blurry when you stand

When medical teams are terrified and you still don’t comprehend why this is such a big deal

Always being freezing cold, even when it’s 100 degrees outside

Dark eyes

Always being tired

Getting medical tests constantly because your told your at risk for cardiac arrest

Counting is literally your best friend

Nothing.Else.Matters

Your whole life’s value is defined of what a scale says, or how your day will be, or if your allowed to fucking eat or not.

There is NEVER going to be a weight you get too that your happy with, NEVER!

The worst part?

You won’t even know how far your gone until it’s too fucking late because your brain is so fogged up it doesn’t believe anybody or anything even when your on the verge of body failure.

Because that voice will continue to tell you “just x more pounds and then I’ll be done”

Until your done.