thinnprettyangel:

do you ever just want to talk to someone about your problems? you lie in bed at night and find yourself crying and crying and wanting to talk to someone. you want to spill your guts out about every single thing you’re struggling with and have them comfort you, and tell you it’ll be alright because youre strong. you want someone to finally listen to you and understand your pain.

but at the same time, you don’t want to. you’re afraid, you’re scared, you’re nervous. you don’t want to deal with any judgement. you dont want to deal with the aftermath. you dont want them knowing about the dumb things you can’t control forever. they’ll act as if you’re this weak thing to pity. they’ll never let you go about it. it’ll always stay on their mind. and it’s just so conflicting because it’ll be the same thing every single night, over and over again, like clockwork. and it just won’t stop.