perfect-skin12:

Alright y’all. Listen up.

I know I’ve been posting some dark shit these last few days. And In none of them did I put a “do not do this” caption so this is my do not post.

PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE do NOT go down this path.

If you are on tumblr trying to trigger yourself or get tips on KILLING your body please LOG OFF now.

It is not cute to have an eating disorder. It’s not a quick diet to fit into that cute outfit. It’s not oh I dont feel like eating today.

It’s thoughts SCREAMING at you to not eat. Telling you you are DISGUSTING and not WORTH LIVING. Even the SMALLEST amount of calories makes you HATE yourself. And do you wanna know the worst part?

It NEVER goes away!!

I was 13. In the 8th grade when I first saw a movie on LMN about eating disorders.

I thought to myself wow I wanna be that thin. Got on google and searched “pro Ana”

My life has never been the same!

When I was 18 I found out I was pregnant and that love for my unborn child saved me. And put me into recovery.

AFTER 5 YEARS.

I am 24 now. And I have relapsed. But you wanna know what? In those 6 years of “recovery” even tho I ate the thoughts NEVER WENT AWAY.

I always had the voice in my head telling me “just don’t eat”

And now 11 years after I first started down this path I am STILL doing the same destructive things.

And I might NOT SURVIVE this time.

Please please please do not do this to yourself. It is not worth it.

IT NEVER GOES AWAY.