safercaloriesecret:

love-skinny-more-than-food:

I’m struggling between “I have to starve, I wanna be fucking thin, someone should finally care” and “What tf are you doing? That’s just unhealthy, it’s not living, it’s existing. Just eat.”
And that’s why I’m permanently switching between binging & starving, that’s why I’m still weighing the same, that’s why I’ll never be thin.
I just have to want it hard enough.

sometimes i doubt if I have an ED cuz my symptoms don’t show any extreme.

Whatever.