me: i want to harm myself
me @ me: I SHOULD DO IT SOMEWHERE VISIBLE SO PPL WILL WORRY
me @ me @ me: what the hell dude that’s fucked up
me @ me @ me @ me: YOU KNOW WHAT ELSE IS FUCKED UP? THE FACT THAT NO ONE CARES ABOUT ME
me @ me @ me @ me @ me: i’ll just harm myself and hide it and just daydream about what it’d be like for ppl to see. compromise
me @ me @ me @ me @ me @ me: maybe i shouldn’t harm myself at all
me @ me @ me @ me @ me @ me @ me: LMAO U THOUGHT!!!!

unstablegay:

when people try to encourage me to not harm myself and tell me i can do it if i just try…it makes me angry, on some level, because they can’t seem to understand that i don’t care about my own wellbeing enough to stop. like. sorry to be an edgelord, but when i say i hate myself, i don’t mean that i’m sad about it and want to change. i mean that i’m full of an all-consuming rage directed at everything i am, was, and ever will be. i don’t want to improve myself because there is nothing here to improve, there is only uselessness and negativity and ugliness. i’m alive by circumstance and i sincerely hope that my self-destructive behaviors will kill me so it’ll look like an accident. i’m just dying real fucking slow because i’m too much of a coward  to shoot myself and i’m not even good enough to deserve a quick release from life, i have to suffer.

killed-long-ago:

I’m a hypocrite for telling people not to harm themselves while my self destruction habbits have reached a warning point

I’m a hypocrite for encouraging people to stay alive and live for another day while I don’t know whether or not I’ll wake up tomorrow

I’m a hypocrite for telling people to keep hoping for things to change while I’ve given up and lost hope

I’m a hypocrite for pushing everyone away and isolating myself from people while I desperately crave for company

I’m a hypocrite for telling people I’m fine while I’m feeling numb and my feelings are dead

I’m a hypocrite for showing everyone that nothing bothers me or hurts me while I’m sitting and overthinking about every single little thing that made me feel like shit

I’m a hypocrite for so many reasons but thats just me

babessnwavess:

telvi1:

Put an assumption in my ask. I’ll confirm or dispute it. I’m not gonna be mean or anything, I’m just very interested. You can go anon if you want.

Omg do this please

chuanfakitty:

avoidantcactus:

Constantly torn between “I can’t ask for help bc then I’m annoying and everyone will be mad” and “I must ask for help at every possible stage because I might do it wrong and then everyone will be mad” ya feel

HOLY SHIT U PUT IT IN WORDS

musicismyperfectescape:

I want to make sure that it’s safe to talk to one another about mental issues.