Having an eating disorder and failing at having said disorder. Having the same cycle every few weeks. Not losing weight, but still obsessing over eating less and constantly counting calories. Losing a little bit of weight, then realising you can’t do this for the rest of your life because you feel like absolute shit, mentally and physically, and you realise you have a healthy weight. Then deciding to pig out and hate yourself for it. Then eating normal again. Aaaand a few weeks later you start over..
You will never meet your goal, but you can’t let it go. Everyday is a disappointment. Everyday you feel like a failure. Stuck. Endlessly.
I go from wanting to never eat again to wanting to eat normally to wanting to eat everything in the kitchen and then back to not wanting to eat again multiple times a day and I’m just very tired of it okay
You don’t have an eating disorder, I’m using this to motivate myself and I don’t want to drag anyone down this rabbit hole with me.
You’re under 13, seriously what are you doing looking at this stuff, you’re a kid don’t fuck up your life, if you have an eating disorder get help! Seriously I wish I had at that age
You’re in recovery, I don’t wanna fuck up anyone’s recovery and I sincerely hope everyone in this community recovers one day.
You’re pro ED,, why the fuck would you wish this on anyone, thats disgusting