Anorexia is not just skipping a few meals and dropping pounds. It’s obsessing over every calorie you burn and consume. It’s planning meals days in advance so you can schedule when to work it off. It’s not eating for a week so you can have a sliver of pie at Christmas. It’s having panic attacks at the thought of family holidays, especially those centered around food. It’s your heart dropping to your stomach when someone says “omg, no, you don’t look fat!” It’s not just eating ice and celery. It’s fearing eating ice for the water weight and fearing celery for the 13 cals.
Bulimia is not sticking two fingers down your throat, throwing up a full meal in one second, and then dropping pounds. Bulimia is sitting over the toilet bowl or garbage can or whatever your poison is, covered in your own vomit and tears and piss because you need to be empty. It’s coughing up blood because you carved into the back of your throat with your nails. It’s getting a new toothbrush every week because all of them smell like vomit. It’s putting bandaids over your knuckles so people can’t see scars and bruises. It’s rotted teeth and fevers and red eyes. It’s weighing before a binge, after a binge, before a purge, and after a purge because you need to make sure you got every gram of food out of you.
Eating disorders are not glamourous. They’re not a trend. They’re not a lifestyle. They’re pain, and blood, and tears, and sweat. They consume your life and beat you down till you can’t think about anything other than food.
Eating disorders are not your choice.
This made me feel so invalidated omggg I know it wasn’t intentional but this isn’t how my ED is :(((
Reblog this from anybody. literally. ANYBODY. even if you dont like them or even know them that well. YOU COULD SAVE THEIR LIFE.
If anyone, and I mean anyone feels like no one could care if they committed suicide, I care and I’m always here for you, even if it’s the middle of the night, I will always be here for you guys.
Kindly FuckOff from my blog please and stop using my ed as a fetish. And thanks for making me throw the f-bomb, I’m usually way too mellow for that shit. 👏
a bunch of moms are making letters+audio recordings of affirming, validating letters to queer/trans* people who don’t get that kind of support from their moms
i would say more about it but
im kind of busy in this puddle of tears on the floor so
In case any of my followers don’t have this kind of support from home…
REBLOG IF YOU THINK ASEXUALS BELONG IN LGBTQ+ SPACES
LIKE IF YOU THINK ASEXUALS DON’T BELONG IN LGBTQ+ SPACES
🙂
REBLOGGING SO HARD.
YOU BETTER FUCKING BELIEVE IM REBLOGGING WTF
GET 👏🏼 RID 👏🏼 OF 👏🏼 ACE/AROPHOBIA 👏🏼
im gonna reblog this everytime i see it ,,
REBLOG THIS ALREADY!
FOR BIG AND MYSELF AND EVERY OTHER ACE/ARO BABE OUT THERE @rainbow-hotline
you can be asexual and be part of the LGBTQ+ community and you can also be asexual and not be part of the LGBTQ+ community cause being asexual has nothing to do with your sexual orientation
My eating disorder didn’t start with me thinking: “I’m going to develop an eating disorder” and instantly skipping meals, restricting calories, and fasting. It’s not like that.
It started out with not being 100% happy with my weight. I knew I was skinny.
I thought: “I should stop eating junkfood and start eating healthy and exercise more.” I thought that I was just going on a diet. And in the beginning, I was just on a diet. Then I thought: “Maybe if I eat just a little less, the weight loss will speed up. But just a little, and i’ll eat normally when I hit my goal weight.”
And then I ate less. And less. And less.
And now I have an eating disorder.
I’ve seen so many fucking posts of people wanting to be come anorexic. To “try it out”
I’m going to break it down for those people.
This is not a fucking diet.
This is hell.
We live in hell.
Every fucking day constantly we fret over little shit we do.
We don’t just shop with friends anymore, we count how many fucking calories we burnt walking.
We eat a fucking apple and it’s like the end of the goddamn world for us.
We can’t have a normal family dinner anymore without almost flipping shit wondering how many calories we will have to burn at night.
And don’t fucking forget we burn those calories 2AM in the fucking morning silently crying wishing we could go back before this hell.
It is not a fucking lifestyle.
Nobody one day just thinks “oh I want a eating disorder”
That’s bullshit.
Stop thinking that eating disorders are just there one day.